Things have, in a way, calmed down here a bit.
My extremely wonderful mother has allowed me to borrow her laptop until the return of my own. This has made it easier to start catching up...or at least would if Prince Charming and the kids ever gave me 5 minutes near the darn thing ;-) It has been a huge help having a reliable computer for Prince Charming's homework and helped relieve a lot of stress on him.
Also, after much discussion, wonderfully honest and open chats and soul searching on both our parts, PC and I have decided to not separate. We have come through some very emotional things in the past weeks and have found each other again. We are both making a huge commitment to making our relationship work and so far it has been a wonderful experience. I would like to say thank you to all those who offered their thoughts, support and prayers. It really and truly meant so much to me.
Bean's 2nd birthday is in 5 more days. It's so hard to believe she's really that big and at the same time almost impossible to imagine life without her. Right now the guest list is at 26 people. I have no idea why. I just felt like having a get together and this seemed a great excuse.
I met a friend for coffee last night. I felt like such a grown up. I know that may seem silly as I'm 29 and a mom of 3 kids, but I really think it was the first time I've ever met anyone for coffee. I've met up for shopping and for a cocktail, but something about coffee and dessert just made me feel all growed up. LOL. I had a GREAT time and an absolute blast.
I also realized on the way to the resturant that I hadn't had a single anxiety attack over the meeting. I know you are thinking, "Well...it is just coffee!" but the thing is that I always have an anxiety attack whenever I go out with anyone except for Molls and my Mom. I've had Social Anxiety ever since my bout with Post Partum depression after having Liberty. It was a great feeling as I realized that in the past week the trials I've gone through with Prince Charming have resulted in a sense of peace and acceptance within myself. And that, my dearest friends, is really saying something.