Stealing Cinderella

I couldn't find a youtube video that allowed me to embed this, so you'll have to click here to see the video. It's how I wish my daddy still felt about me and it's how Prince Charming will (does) feel about his little Cinderellas.

This is the one PC mentions in the comments, and the original one I was looking for but couldn't find at first :-)





Sorry if you cry. Guess it's that kinda day today.

A ConfessionandSix Words that Meant the World

I have a confession to make. Or maybe an FYI. Anyway, Prince Charming and I have separated. We have been for a week and one day as of today. We have known since before Christmas that this needed to happen, but were unable financially to do anything. Finally,at the end of January, we were in a place where we could go through with it.

We still talk all day, he still visits both me and the kids, and we are still friends. Divorce is not on the table. We simply both have issues that must be worked out, worked through, moved past, and growing up to do. And some of this just can't happen while we are living under the same roof. At least for me. We are going to go to counseling. We are going to try everything to make it through this. And I believe we will both be better in the end.

So if you have heard me whining about no job, now you know why. And if I am not on here to visit or post, now you know why :-) I really am okay. I miss him. I'm lonely. I'm terrified. But I've had a while to prepare for what's ahead of me. The kids are taking it in stride, trying to figure things out. The hardest part is worrying if I've made the right choice. If this is the path that will help us both in the end. But all I can do is have Faith in myself and my abilities to see my through whatever may come.

There has not been an overwhelming sense of support for me, nor has there been any severe disagreements. Just a mildly worried acceptance. Sometimes that makes it hard, scares me more, and makes me doubt myself. But this weekend, two people said something to me and without knowing what they had done, they gave me an amazing sense of peace, strength and calm.

Somone reminded me to 'Be Yourself'. Something I have been struggling with for a while now. Who I am, who I want to be, who I should be. Somehow those words instantly reminded me of where I wanted to go in my life and draw strength from that.

Another person, who is not an emotional type, said to me "I am proud of you.' And while maybe to others these are just ordinary words, they made me cry and helped restore my faith in myself and in my journey.

So to those people, if you are reading this, Thank you for what you have given me. Thank you for reminding me. And thank you for loving me.

The trouble with Knitting...

I've decided to learn to knit. I've always wanted to, and I've been told that as a kid I knew how. I did have a brief stint with crochet while preggers with Alex, but that was also short lived.

Why knitting?

Because yesterday (while getting a fabulous hair cut) I was looking through this catalog and saw these:


I knew immediately that Liberty needed those this winter:

#1. Because I like her to be all hip like that
#2. Because they are beyond freaking adorable
#3. Because they go outside unless it's 10 deg. or below, and with these she can still wear tights and skirts.

Then her and her (both also getting a fabulous hair cut) suggested that I learn to knit, because they have both started knitting recently. Plus $18 for a pair of leg warmers seemed a little much to me.

I have yarn. I have the needles. I have the book with beginner instructions and how to's. And I'm confused as all heck.

Web design, scrap booking, nature photography, writing, baking and cooking? Now those are my hobbies. I am not so good at the sewing thing.

Want proof?

I can't knit all afternoon like I planned. Why? Because I have to wait for Prince Charming to get home from work to show me how.
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Yes. It's okay. Laugh. Very Very loud. And then please send large bottles of vodka wish me luck.

****Update****

Thanks to Roz's great link, I have successfully mastered the cast on, knit, and purl.

All.By.Myself.

Thus my self respect has been preserved. I love my Prince Charming and he's a great catch (thus..the Prince Charming title) but learning to knit from your hubby? Not so high on the cool factor.

Roz: I love you! I love you! I love you!